Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it's what you are expecting to give -- which is everything.

I hope you have a great day man.

shadorunr
I hope its a good day sir.

You know the fundamentalist religious right / republicans are so goddamn worried we are going to kill their god and steal their right to live as they wish.

when no one is trying to do anything of the sort

I think its about time we should,  we should start working to take away their right to believe as they wish we should treat them like they treat us.

fuck turning the other cheek they preach it but never do it we do it but don't preach it well I say fuck that

I am sick of it all

I am gonna start being the outspoken evil bastard they accuse liberals of being. I will say my piece, I will shock them, I will do the things they are so worried I will do and I will enjoy myself in the process.
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I like sex, I don't believe in their god, I live an alternative lifestyle. I think for myself I don't need some guy on Sunday or some guys from 2000 years ago telling me how to live my life. I don't need guilt trips I don't need their crap.

I don't want to die in their self perpetuated Armageddon, if they are in such a fucking hurry to meet their maker they should eat a fucking bullet and leave the rest of us alone. Cause I guarantee if I survive what ever hell they manage to bring about I will make it my sole mission to wipe every one of those motherfuckers off the face of this planet they will not get a second chance to spread their lies and intolerance and honestly would you blame me?

Leave people alone stay out of their business you don't want me coming and fucking with you and your beliefs then give us the same courtesy.

Bush was an lunatic who believed imaginary beings spoke to him and with the Religious right he managed to royally fuck this country up, and now the guy who inherited this shit storm is having a hard time doing anything about it. I am not happy with his performance so far he needs to nut up and give a big finger to the assholes on the right and take control, I would respect him more if he did so but unfortunately he has a similar problem as the former guy he believes in make believe people too and no matter what you believe GOD is never gonna fix things he hasn't yet and he is not gonna come down (IN YOUR LIFETIME AND DO SO) its up to us the tangible humans that are right here on this earth to effect change and make our lives better.  ( and yes I know not a lot of time has passed and its a huge mess and he has a lot to do but he needs to take the kid gloves off)

Because you believe that the second coming is gonna happen soon is no excuse to not be responsible and take care of this world we live in. People have been saying that same thing since the guy died he is not coming back get over it.
Learn to deal with your own mortality people yeah it sucks death is a scary thing but fucking your life up over the inevitable end is not the most intelligent thing to do. We only get one ride on this planet and until someone proves other wise that is the whole of the truth.

Be good to one another be like your Christ he wasn't a bad guy from what I have read don't tarnish his legacy with your ignorant ways.

(My sincere apologies to those friends of mine who do believe in a higher power in what ever from it may take. If you are my friend you know I respect your decisions and choices and that I am not TALKING ABOUT YOU.)

30 some odd years ago I beat up a bully. This kid shared my name and chose, for whatever reason bullies choose to do things, make my life hell. He teased me, he threw things at me, called me names. He was a relentless little bastard but I ignored him for months and months all the while the pressure to do something was building up.

One day we were at the bus stop waiting to go to school. When he came up to me and said something, I don't remember what it was three decades later, but it was enough to make my nine year old self decide it was time. Time to do something to make it stop. I punched him in the left eye. Then in the neck, then pushed him to the ground and told him to never say another word to me. I turned and got on the bus and went to school. He got up and ran home screaming. A few hours later my father came and collected me from school because I was in trouble.  I didn't care because it was so satisfying to hit that kid and make him stop. I told my father the whole story and he stood up for me and told the administrators that I was just defending myself and that he would not allow them to kick me out of school for that and besides it didn't occur on school grounds so they had no jurisdiction. They negotiated a one day suspension just to keep this kids parents happy but it did not go on my record.

I saw Chad on the bus a few days later his left eye was the color of grape cool-aid on a hot summer day and it was just about as satisfying. He never spoke to me again.

"Loving someone is easy: It's your car and all you have to do is start the engine, give it a little gas and point the machine wherever you want to go. But *being* loved is like going for a ride in someone else's car. Even if you think they'll be a good driver, you alsoJo have a lurking fear that they might end up doing something disastrous and in an instant you'll both be flying through the windshield towards pain and later on, your heart billing you big time for this ride. Being loved can be the most frightening thing of all. Because real love in any form means goodbye to control; so what happens if halfway or three-quarters of the way through a trip with someone, you decide you want to go back or in a different direction, but you're only the passenger?"from Bones of the Moon - Jonathan Carroll

I'm standing here on the ground
The sky above won't fall down
See no evil in all direction
Resolution of happiness
Things have been dark
For too long

Don't change for you
Don't change a thing for me
Don't change for you
Don't change a thing for me

I found a love I had lost
It had been gone for too long
Hear no evil in all directions
Execution of bitterness
Message received loud and clear

Don't change for you
Don't change a thing for me
Don't change for you
Don't change a thing for me

I'm standing here on the ground
The sky above won't fall down
See no evil in all direction
Resolution of happiness
Things have been dark
For too long

Don't change for you
Don't change a thing for me
Don't change for you
Don't change a thing for me
Don't change for you
Don't change a thing for me
Doooooooooon't change
Doooooooooon't change

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U1ImjjR3BTA

Can we say that we are free
Our hands are bound and voices silent
I'm sure it's not a dream
I am awake, my eyes are open

I can't accept and won't concede
In aftermath we find redemption
The causes that are seized
And disguised as revolution

Quell the rage that deeply seethes
The extremes of these devotions
Dismantle the machine
The device of their creation

I can't accept and won't concede
That this is who we are
The conflict that is seized
And disguised as greater notions

To the songs that sing of glory and the brave
Are we dreaming there are better days to come
When will the banners and the victory parades
Celebrate the day a better world was won

On the day, the storm has just begun
I will still hope there are
Better days to come

In the face of what I say
My words will turn to anger
Malevolence in need
Cannot provide direction

I won't accept this thought
That this is who we are
Positions never change
Losing all forward motion

All of that which deeply seethes
Temper your devotion
Dismantle the machine
The device of your convictions

I can't accept and won't concede
That this is who we are
The conflict that is seized
And disguised as greater notions

To the songs that sing of glory and the brave
Are we dreaming there are better days to come
When will the banners and the victory parades
Celebrate the day a better world was won

To the songs that sing of glory and the brave
Are we dreaming there are better days to come
When will the banners and the victory parades
Celebrate the day a better world was won

On the day the storm has just begun
I will still hope there are
Better days to come

On the day the storm has just begun
I will still hope there are
Better days to come

Do you ever think about what its like to live in a tourist town. I am a townie who lives in a tourist town all year long.

People come here to visit to have a great time, do things they wouldn't normally do, take chances they wouldn't normally take.

And with a just a few exceptions they all leave after the perfect summer is over they go back to their normal comfortable predictable lives.

They take with them the memories of excitement and joy and lessons learned. but they almost always never come back. Granted there are those that do but their lives are never the same and that scares them.

Its lonely and cold in tourist town in the winter.

I for one am very glad I found you so many years ago you are a refreshing splash of water on the other wise dismal and dull face of life.

I hope your move goes well and one of these days I will actually make it down there so we can hang out.

have a wonderful you day.

I am wondering if anyone is going. And if so wouldn't mind some company to share the costs.

http://www.vendetta-music.com/festival/tickets.html


let me know.

This is so full of win

http://www.ksl.com/index.php?sid=&nid=443&tab=list/view&ad=1586459

nyx_hemsut I hope you have a great birthday.

So its been a really long time since I have updated. Some would say that is cause life is good and mostly they would be right. Life is good and stupid busy so much so that I really havent had time to sit down and compose anything.

I just interviewed for a new position at Perot it will still be remote but I will no longer be the SR Intel supermonkey. ANNNND I will be back on the management Track.

I have a second interview later this week with the rest of the team I would be working with. So we will see.

I really enjoyed myself and from what I was told my performance was enjoyed.

Thanks everyone for a good weekend.

now if I could just sleep.

SO Day one I started half way through and I had a nice breakfast of 4 slices of toast with Jam and ICBINB (thanks Fabio)
Which I though would push me over my caloric limit for the day boy was I wrong I ended up being 900 some odd calories short.

This is not gonna happen today though I made a nice automagic excel spread sheet to track the meals throughout the day so I will know if I have to add some Flax or something.
O and word to the wise don't let a shake with ground flax in it sit around for two long or you will have porridge.

Also cooking dinner for other people when you can't even taste it is an exercise in willpower I am just gonna have to get used to. Damn that was tough I miss Tacos.

So workout one was most awesome I was expecting it to be fairly easy with just 4 exercises boy was I wrong I felt like a wad of cookie dough.
I was litterly shaking at the end of the whole thing. But man I felt great going home and today only a slight bit of soreness in the legs.

Total reps: 40 per exercise
Rest: 45 seconds between each set
Load: Medium (8-9 Reps per set) while keeping good form and speed. This takes some adjustment.

• A      Dumbbell Squat  I did this with 50lbs
• B      Dumbbell Bench Press  I did these with 60lbs
• C      Bent-Over Row – barbell or dumbbells  did these with 60lbs
• D      Plank Hold and this is an isometric where you just sit propped up in a pushup position resting on your elbows for as long as possible then rest 45 and do again. Sounds easy it is not.

I also did my before pics and measurements last night and OMG I am not happy with that bit of insight.

But its just more fuel for the fire

I will be doing a short spoken word on Sunday around 7

so tomorrow I start the new workout/diet plan.
Inspired by my friend Rafe over at shrinkgeek I am looking forward to this.

There will be before and after pictures so this should be interesting.

Stay tuned I will try and give updates as I can.

This is a pretty busy time of year but if this works like its has shown to work I should be in a much different place in a month or so.

who like to make bread

I have a very happy week old sour dough starter

if you are interested let me know.